It's all my fault !

Every day, every night I'm being torn apart
Coz I still don't have a place in your heart.

Just one call I'm waiting for it.
The pain you gave me, all I'll forget.

Acting as a stranger, was easy before.
And I never cared, nor wanted to know you more.

I regret for all those smiles, I saved.
It lies in my garden like roses withered !

Scribbled, my feelings, I tried to hide,
And I wish if I could lose all of my pride.

The coffee we haven't shared, I keep that all,
In my burning heart and I weep,

"Have a sip and heal my heart.
I can't contain anymore, its so hot."

The Hello's unanswered, I wrapped up in perfect.
Still unopened, you can find it in the depth of my breath.

Apologies ever made, was stolen by wicked mind,
And thrown over, where all junks piled.

Every day, every night I'm being torn apart
Cause, now I realize, It was all my fault.

Mornings not-greeted, have never made fates,
Dusk may end up as ecstatic color palettes. 

I have faith in these natural laws and,
All I want is a place in your heart.

What is good in 'good bye' ?

No longer will my silence breaks someone's heart...
No longer someone will have sleepless nights because i exists...!
No longer will someone deepen my wounds,
By chanting the same old mistake i did.
No longer someone have to worry about the mistake,
Which so far never happened..!

No longer someone have to pretend good,
To make me clean the mess and feed the cattle.
No longer someone have to play stupid tricks,in behind,
To steal my roses, blossomed of my sweat.

But still I thank those, who stood by me,
Through all thick and thin,
Blessed me with knowledge,
When I was nothing.
Made me smile when I was ill,
Made their mouth closed,so that I won't feel.

Opened me, the heavens door,
Showed faith in a soul, which is poor.
Made my mind, hard enough,
To face a truth, really tough!

What is painful ? Surely not the farewell.
Its the feeling, that journey was not well,
And I have lost the pride and dignity,
With which I had started this journey.